Love Letter

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To My Queen,
I know it’s nothing I can say to fix this. I did a lot of things to you. Let’s not forget
the things I did for you. I never cheated on you and I stuck by you. Our first two
years were the hardest because I needed to grow up. Once we were married, I
knew I had to be a man for you. I had to be a man for me. I was a man when we met
but you helped complete me. We spent so much time tearing each other down…it’s
a shame we didn’t spend as much time rebuilding. I did you so wrong and you were

always there. You never closed your doors on me. You were there when I didn’t de-
serve you. You did more for me than any woman ever has. You are the only mother

of my children. The problem is I didn’t know what I had when I had it. Queen, it
broke my heart when you told me you were with another man. It broke me period! I
don’t know how to stop the hurt. At first I felt so much anger towards you and him. I

couldn’t understand how you could want to be in the arms of another man? He does-
n’t know you like I know you. He doesn’t know when you aren’t well. He doesn’t

know your true dreams. He doesn’t know where you’ve been or where you’re going.
How could you give your body (my body) to another man? Does he touch you better
than me? Does he take the time to learn your body the way I do/did? I’m trying to
understand why you cheated? I fucked up a lot, and I do mean a lot. But how could
you crave another man? Was I that bad to you? We experienced a horrible break up.
I don’t know if I can trust again. All I know is; I didn’t know what true love was until
we found it together. Our bond is unbreakable. Our children only add to what I’m
telling you. Maybe, I can’t be as good to you as he is. Maybe, you think the grass is
greener on the other side. I don’t care! Did you read that? If not, I will write it again,
I don’t care! You do what you need to do with him. Have fun and enjoy life. Get

“whatever you like” and have a nice time doing it. When you are done fooling your-
self, your King will be right here. I don’t care, and I love you enough not to care. I

think it makes me a bigger person to look past your infidelity. I’ve missed you and
my family. I know you miss me. I know you do. There was a time you wouldn’t hear
me out…now you listen. I can’t speak for you, but I love you. You gave me so many
second chances and I want to give you one. Queen, take your time because I’m not
going anywhere. If anything, I want to be your friend. If you need me, I’m here. If
you just need to talk, I’m here. I won’t overstep my boundaries but I have to be

apart of your life somehow. Maybe it’s a phase for you, maybe not. I regret not fight-
ing harder for you. I’m comfortable and miserable all at the same time. I’ve changed

so much; I just wish I could share this with you. I’ve made changes to all the things
that bothered you. Without you, I’m not completely blessed. I spend my days praying
you find your way back to me. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you. I just want you
to accept me the way I’m willing to accept you. Come as you are, I know the real
you. I love the new you and I love the old you. I’m here.
Love Always, Your King
People, this is a love letter of regret and sorrow. Don’t allow yourself to walk away
from the one you love. Don’t allow yourself to hurt if you don’t have to. Love…and
love hard. -Aquarius 2-2-0

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